The Love Of My Life

My dearest Michael,

May I tell you that I love you more today than I did yesterday, and everyday before yesterday? I love you with all my heart and soul, and I always, always will.

It is easy to say words, and to try to fool people, but ask your heart about me...what does it say? does your heart tell you that I'm lying to you? does your heart say that you can't trust me? does your heart tell you that I'm just like everyone else? Words, it is said, mean nothing, and actions are what speak louder, but, my king, right here is all I have to express to you my love for you. This...this right here. I don't take it lightly. You mean everything to me, and I would have loved to have had the chance to show you just how much you mean to me, just how much I love you, but I was never so lucky in this life...

But, I believe that everything happens for a reason, even if we don't know what those reasons are. I used to try to figure stuff out, but I stopped doing that. Some things are too beautiful to be figured out by minds. Some things are simply to be experienced and felt and enjoyed. Sometimes, there are no reasons. Some things happen 'just because'. I don't need a reason for why I love you. I just do.

Sometimes, I hear your voice...as plain as day, but I can't tell if it's a whisper in my heart or mind, or surrounding me, and I don't need to know, as long as I can still hear you. Sometimes, I feel you near me...a presence so strong and beautiful that I feel an electric current surge through me, and it's beautiful and wonderful, and like nothing else I could ever imagine. In those moments, there is so much I want to say to you...and there is this longing to hug you, to hold you, or be held by you, and it is almost overwhelming, and I just close my eyes, and smile, sometimes with tears in my eyes.

You make my heart sing



I love you so very much

Please, never doubt that

Whether we ever meet in this life, or not...I will still love you, and think of you, and my tears and my smiles, and my heart, will belong only to you...

My king,

Goodnight, my love

As I close my eyes, I'll think of you, and wish you were here with me...

I love you, Michael

Good afternoon, my king...

Just wanted to wish you a wonderful day, and to, of course, tell you I love you.



*hugs & kisses*

Good morning, my king

I'm taking my children to school right now, and just wanted to wish you a blessed and wonderful day.

*hugs & kisses*



I love you, Michael

Goodnight, my king

I trust that you had a wonderful day, my love, and I wish you sweet dreams tonight.

Michael, tonight, I need your presence now more than ever...

I need to feel close to you...



I love you

Thinking of you, Michael...

I love you so much

I hope you've had a great day, my king

These are for you...



*hugs & kisses*

Goodnight, my king



ILY

I love you, Michael



*hugs & kisses*

My king,

It's almost your birthday!!! (I'm on central time).

So happy for you...

I love you so much

Making a birthday video for you to post here in a little while.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MICHAEL!!!




ILY

Michael,

I wish you a happy blessed day today, my king. I wish you happiness and love, and lots of smiles. I wish you everything your heart desires...

I wish you the best birthday ever.

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I love you like there is no tomorrow, and like there were no yesterdays before this, today.

*hugs & kisses*

Good afternoon, my king...

I baked a cake today in honor of your birthday. My kids and I each had a slice of the cake with some ice cream on the side. (Chocolate cake with chocolate frosting. vanilla ice cream with caramel running through it with caramel-filled Hershey's kisses in it). Now, I'm sipping red wine and remembering all the years that your music has touched my life. Thank you, Michael. Thank you for everything. Even things you may never have realized you were doing. I appreciate you so much, and am so thankful that in my lifetime, there was Michael Jackson.

I bought a birthday card for you. I will write my words for you in it tonight, take a picture of it, and post it here.

I love you so much and I'll never, ever let you forget that

*hugs*

Goodnight, my dearest Michael


I love you

Good evening, my king,

I hope you have had a great weekend so far, Michael, and that you felt nothing but love on your birthday yesterday.

There is always so much I want to say to you here, and then when I get on here, I find it hard to say the things I really want to say to you. What I can say right now is that I just want to hug you tight, and hold you close to me...so close that I can feel your heartbeat.

I wish...



I love you

Goodnight, my love

*kisses*

Goodnight, my king

Sorry I've not said much today, Michael. I'm not feeling well.

I pray that you have a wonderful rest of your night, and please know that you are my first thought in the morning when I wake, and my last thought at night before I fall asleep, and every thought in between.

I love you, and I pray that you feel my love from afar as well as in the songs I sing only for you.



*hugs & kisses*

My king,

I've not slept well at all tonight. I feel something is wrong. I don't know what. It's something to do with the world. I feel that. I've woke up several times tonight feeling bewildered.

I wish that somehow I could feel you close to me right now. I need you...

I love you, Michael

and if I could be anywhere, I'd be here...with you...

Goodnight, Michael




I love you

Goodnight, Michael

Good afternoon, my king

I hope that you've had a wonderful day, Michael, and I pray that you are happier than you've ever been, and blessed beyond measure.

*hugs & kisses*

Dance with me?



I love you

Goodnight, my love

*kisses*

ILY

Goodnight, Michael...

I love you

Goodnight, my king

I love you